WILL YOU LET ME INTO IT...?
You have been asking me to end it for you. To come to your aid.
You say its so hard for you. That the uphill climb is too steep. That it's taking too long. That the pill is too bitter, and you've swallowed it for far too long.
So each time you come before me, you are in tears.
You have become disappointed with me.
Because I haven't yet broken you free from that addiction and you seem to be sinking even deeper into it.
Because i haven't freed you from all those debts and now they are literally coiling around your neck.
Because i haven't healed you of that illness, yet your body is so much pain. Or even set the records straight, where you've been wrongfully accused and judged.
Or restored your marriage, nursed it back to health. That loved one is still in jail, locked up. And i seem not to care about it.
So many things you feel i haven't done for you. And you wonder what it is that you are not doing right, forgetting that I have never been after your right, but your brokenness and meekness. I have never expected right from you, like all those religious people keep telling you.
I know you. I understand you.
That is why i only seek repentance from you, and i will do the rest.
My Child, please understand that i don't always have to get you out of the fire when you ask me to. Sometimes, i want to step into the fire with you. Try asking me into the fire. Like those Jewish boys,...Shadrack, Meshack and Abednego.
I had power to put off the King's fiery furnace. But instead, i allowed him to increase its temperature to six times over. And i allowed him to throw the boys into it. So i could step into the fire with them, and reap glory for myself. And in the end, even the king himself, got to see my power and my boy's faith was increased many times over.
The boys could have cursed me, when they saw the fire being increased. They could have denied me, when they saw their feet and hands being tied up by the guards. But they knew. They knew that even in the fire, i was going to be with them. And in the end, the king was amazed to see them walking unbound, inside the fire. UNBOUND.
Child, the only thing this fiery fire you feel is going to burn, is whatever that has bound you. The illness, the addiction, the disappointment....whatever it is you feel i am not doing now, that is what this fire will burn off.
You will be unscathed. I am with you.
I have not forgotten you. I am not ignoring you, i never have.
Sometimes, there are lessons i must teach you, so i allow the situation to seem like it has worsened.
Sometimes, the time is just not right, but you have no way of knowing it because you are in pain.
Sometimes, it must wait a little longer, because i want to use it for a greater good.
But you can find rest and peace in knowing that i never leave your side. Understand that you will not be hurt by anything the world throws at you. See, I have overcome the world.(John 16: 33)
But i want you to ask me into the situation. Don't just ask me to end the pain, ask me into it. Let me into that hospital bed, to carry the pain with you. Let me into your rocky and thorny marriage. Let me into your struggles. Let me into your grief.
Learn to lean on Me at ALL times.
I see everything, i know it all.
Let's go through it together.
Yours Loving Father